There’s only one thing more precious than my time, and that’s who I’m going to choose to spend it with.
“Do it!” My heart used to whisper this all the time.
“Don’t be stupid!” My mind would reply!
I used to always listen to my mind. Sometimes it led me to the place where I wanted to be, other times I felt I’d missed out on things out of fear and risk of the unknown.
They say the best things in life are free. For the most part I’d have to agree. But many of us overlook the greatest thing of all – time! I know I do!
I’ve wasted a great deal of time in the past. I’ve wasted time on people, on worrying, on being sad, umming and ahhing over things, doing things I didn’t want to be doing, in dead-end jobs…I think we’d almost all agree that we all waste our time to some degree.
Time…I’d never really thought about its deeper meaning too much. When I teach my kids about the word time at school – I use the example of time as we usually think of it – seconds, minutes, hours, days…you get the picture…
When I looked up the definition of time, it didn’t really align with my own definition. In fact it was quite different.
Time – the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole.
Obviously, without time we wouldn’t exist. Instead of existing, we’d just ‘be’. To exist is so much more…
Existing to me is to make progress through life – to constantly evolve and to learn from out existence while remembering that one day, time will sadly just run out…depressing I know, but the last two years have taught me this, and it’s been a bitter pill to swallow.
It’s crazy…things get faster as you get older. I remember being 16 and wishing I was 21…oh the irony. Time these days doesn’t slow down nor does it remain at a constant pace. The days that once felt as if they went on for weeks just disappear in the blink of an eye. Don’t even get me started on all those holidays that seemed to drag on and I couldn’t wait to get back to the comforts of my own home…now, my holidays just don’t feel long enough.
It does remain constant (time that is). It never slows down. I don’t have any control over time and its speed. There are 86,400 seconds in every day – there’s no changing that. But there is something I can change, something I need to change. I need to change how I use my time.
I’ve always been the ‘play it safe girl’. I’ve always waited for the ‘right time’ or ‘right moment’. Sometimes those moments came along, and some of those moments I’m still waiting for, years later…
Here’s the thing…time’s a continued process – it can’t be stopped, which means the only right time is NOW!
I’ve grown and changed a lot in the last 6 months or so, and I’ve come to realise so many things, and this is what I’m going to do…
I’m going to stop waiting for that so-called ‘right’ time! If I like someone, I’m going to tell them. If I want to do something, I’m going to do it. If I think he’s worth the risk, I’m going to take it.
My new chapter begins today. I’m going to stop waiting and start appreciating. I’m going to spend time with the people I love and start creating new moments and memories. It’s time to start living in the now!
Like the old adage goes – time’s precious, which is why I’m going to waste it wisely!